ASH & SEA G

May 23

My tattoo

May 23

How I feel all the time, I used to jump in my car and drive, not knowing my destination. I haven’t done that in awhile, because gas is too expensive.

May 10

(Source: artsy-feather)

May 10

(Source: proust73, via divinadivine)

Apr 13

(Source: fer1972, via ocelott)

Mar 16

This photograph just really struck me.

(via ocelott)

Bon Iver: And I told you to be patient, and I told you to be fine. I told you to be balanced, and I told you to be kind, but now all your love is wasted. And then who the hell was I?
Death Cab: So one last touch and then you'll go and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more. But it was vile, and it was cheap and you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me. Yeah, you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
Radiohead: But I can't help the feeling I could blow through the ceiling if I just turn and run. And it wears me out... It wears me out. If I could be who you wanted, if I could be who you wanted all the time... all the time.
Brand New: You are calm and reposed, let your beauty unfold. Pale white like the skin stretched over your bones, spring keeps you ever close. You are secondhand smoke, you are so fragile and thin standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins.
Nicki Minaj: You a stupid hoe, you a you a stupid hoe. You a stupid hoe, you a you a stupid hoe. You a stupid hoe, you a you a stupid hoe. You a stupid hoe, you a you a stupid hoe. You a stupid hoe, yeah you a you a stupid hoe.You a stupid hoe you a you a stupid hoe. You stupid stupid, you a stupid hoe

Feb 27

hah

Thank God for the women I have in my life now. If I was left alone, with my own thoughts and my own mind, for too long, nothing good ever comes of it. Although it seems now I have started to really get myself together. I haven’t been single in 6 years. Not really. I’ve always had someone with me, sometimes they were abusive, sometimes they just filled the spaces that I needed them to fill to distract me. I have learned so much in the last year of my life, I have changed completely as a person, changed my expectations, my goals, and my personality. However, nothing has changed with the constant battle that I have, ongoing, with myself. I am what determines my success, or my failure, and that is what I must make sure that I continue to understand. I have met new people, I have loved new people. I learned that it is possible for a good guy to genuinely love me and care for me, however I have also learned that you cannot force love. I tried to force everything, because nothing I have ever experienced had taught me that such a thing could be real. And I don’t blame that, I won’t attach my consciousness to that, but I will recognize that pattern that seems to exist almost in my DNA. I cannot blame my father, or even my mother. Regardless of the resources they supplied me with, I alone have been responsible for my own choices. I used to have such confidence. I used to feel so beautiful all the time, and I had many people reassuring me that I was. Now I feel ugly. I feel worthless. A relationship shouldn’t be what I look to for such reassurance. And a physical life shouldn’t be anyone’s drive. Today, my friends made me feel otherwise. Not a man. I have everything to offer, everything to give. It is time that I finally awaken, finally give myself to the world. No matter what happens, the past never changes. I will never wish for its change again. All I want, today, is for a new beginning. I want some reassurance, although I don’t require it. I just want a push. I am that push. I will be the push that surges me forward. I can feel the forces of the universe beckoning me forward, and it exhilarates me.

Feb 22

Renaissance: I haven’t been alone since I was 15

FUCK fuck fuck fuck fuck

Feb 21